There is quote from the musical Avenue Q that most musical theatre people are familiar with.. "Purpose, its that little flame, that lights a fire under your ass. Purpose, it keeps you going strong, like a car with a full tank of gas! Everyone else has a purpose, so what’s mine?"...
This is one of those infallible questions of the universe that no one, not even Stephen Hawking has the answer to. "What is my purpose?" Webster's dictionary defines it as "something to be attained." But what do we feel is our own purpose in life? That job of all jobs, a nice nest egg, the house on top of the hill, what? Notice these are all things of concrete nature, but what about the hypothetical. Family? Love? Friends? To say that these aren't purposes in life is a lie. We all, no matter what way say out loud, have dreams or goals that we want to accomplish that could be the above examples or any from a vast amount of possibilities. But the question is how do we attain them? How do we reach that final treasure? Where is the Google Map with exact directions from Point A to Point B with the amount of time, and miles it will take?...Well it doesn't exist.
We are our own Google Map. We are the little blue dot on the iPhone that keeps traveling around in circles until we reach the green dot signaling our destination. I am 25 year old, single, gay man, that travels as an actor/singer for work. Am I happy? Yes because I am on stage performing and that is what makes me feel good inside and what I wanted/trained to do. Do I feel complete in life? No, there is always something to attain finish that mental picture of the life we dream of. Am I searching for that other purpose? You bet ya. Am I where I thought I would be at the age of 25? Not in the slightest. Let take a quick trip back in time for a bit.
1) If you asked me when I was 10 years old, where would I be in 15 years, I would have probably said..."I am going to be a priest in the Catholic Church."
2) If you asked me when I was 13 years old where would I be in 12 years, I would have probably said... " I will be a deacon in the Catholic Church so I can have a wife and kids."
3) If you asked me when I was 15 where I would be in 10 years, I'm sure I would have said..."I think I will be a high school religion teacher in my hometown, married to my girlfriend from college, with a child on the way in a small 2 bedroom house near my parents." Anyone seeing a pattern here? Anyone? Bueler?
But ask me that same question 5 years ago and you would have gotten a complete different answer, more so where I am now. Ask anyone these questions over time and you will get a different answer. I guess my point is that we don’t know what is going to happen in 50 years, 30 years, next week or tomorrow. Goals change because life is ever changing. But purpose, that little flame like the quote says is what keeps us going. We have to have a goal in mind otherwise we would stall and move nowhere. If you don't have one, take a good look deep in your self. What is it that makes your gut wrench? What is your magic lamp on top of the rock surrounded by lava? That is your purpose, your goal, your little flame. Does that purpose change? YES. Is that okay? YES. Just don’t simply give up, find a new purpose, and you are good as gold.
… “I’m Gonna find my purpose. What will it be? Where will it be? My purpose in life is a Mystery. Gotta find my purpose, Gotta find ME!”